Even that's the thing what doesn't annoy me that much like everything else, everyone around me keep talking about it and it pisses me off, kind of. I feel like I don't belong there again. I swear that every friend of mine is talking with me just about their realitionships, crushes and so on. And I am the only single one. I don't care if I'm single or not. I don't give a shit about it. No, seriously, how I could even think about liking someone and think that he would like me back, when I hate absolutely everything about myself and have no confidence at all, so even if it'd be true, I'd chase them away. I doubt there's someone who would like a girl like me, depressed, self-harming, dumb, fat, ugly and awkward kind of girl. Good joke.
But that's not what I was talking about. Suddenly, all around me started to being annoying (even I am the annoying one, though), they still ask me about my love life, if I have some crush, wondering if I'm still a virgin, if some guy finally touched me and blah blah blah. IT PISSES ME OFF. Fuck.
They simply don't understand that fact that I can't have a boyfriend because I would make him unhappy, I would pull him into my problems, he would see my cry all the fucking time, he would have to get used to that I self-harm sometimes, that I hate myself, that I talk about death a lot and tell me, who the hell got nerves for some shit like that!? ughhhhhhhhhhhh
I don't know. It's such a small problem compared to my other troubles, but I had to get it out too.
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